What better day to dust off the old blog and write a post than a rainy January afternoon? So much is happening that is new, different, exciting, and making me so unbelievably happy that I’m almost afraid to express joy about it since, given my track record, when I do, something bad happens. This could be just my neurosis and anxiety coming through, though, as usual.
I’m so excited about becoming a mom with each passing day. We are having a little boy at the end of May, and I am beyond thrilled — especially after years of trying to conceive. We are excited to add a baby to our large pack at home, which now includes two beagles, and two cats. What’s one more, right? I am finally starting to feel him move and wiggle, which makes me so ecstatic I can hardly stand it. It makes me feel like this is really happening and everything is OK, as long as I can feel him moving. He is there and not going anywhere. Based off of some childhood trauma with siblings, which I won’t go into yet because I think I’m writing an article about it next week — it’s understandable for me to feel anxious quite a bit and be in constant worry that he’s there, he’s fine, and everything will be OK.
So on that note, the article I’m writing is for Romper, a company I’ve been wanting to write for, for years, and have finally been contributing to since last May. It’s the “parenting section,” if you will, of Bustle, the feminist millennial website. It’s the best job ever and I’m really enjoying it. I can finally get a byline again and write in my own voice and tone — not just ghostwriting for CEOs and other high-ranking professionals, and it’s fun to write about what’s going on in my life. I was able to write about our trying to conceive journey (and hopefully help others with theirs along the way through the articles), and now my pregnancy. I’m hoping to be able to contribute to more infant and kid stuff once the baby is here. Thankfully, I’m going to continue to be able to work from home and work for Romper after baby boy arrives. And before you get “Judgey McJudgerson” on me (like every freaking person seems to do once they find out you’re pregnant), I have a game plan of being able to do this while having the baby at home. I know plenty of moms who have done this, and while it will be difficult, I know I’ll be able to do it, too. I’m looking forward to the challenge, and I cannot wait to be a mom. I’m hoping to talk about that more in this space, too, and not necessarily have it become a “Mommy Blog” or whatever. But we’ll see what happens. Not that there’s anything wrong with “Mommy Blogs,” and if it does turn into that, so be it, and I’m going to try to make this the best damn “Mommy Blog” out there.
I’ve also been doing a lot more reading for pleasure than I have in a couple of years. Currently reading The Night Circus, finally, I know, and just finished Augusten Burroughs, Lust & Wonder. He’s my favorite author and I’m so glad he finally put out a new memoir. It’s a little scary how our idiosyncrasies are so similar. I think that’s why I like him so much.
But nothing Earth-shattering or insightful and deep here today. Just an update about how everything is falling into place, and trying to shake off the blogging cobwebs. I’ve been doing more fun and personal writing than I have in a long time, and I think it’s because I’m so inspired and happy with the writing work I’ve been doing lately instead of corporate stuff — and no longer being in a job I absolutely hated that made me miserable and want to get into a car crash on the way to work so I wouldn’t have to go in. I even got to work at a healthy pet food and supply store down the street from my house for almost three years to supplement my freelance income until the beginning of this month. Since I’m pregnant, I had to quit because of the lifting and dealing with raw products, but I’m hoping to go back maybe a couple times a month after the baby is born, because I really enjoyed working there. Petting dogs that come in and talking about animals all day? Best job ever.
All in all, things are pretty good right now. And for once, I am so excited to see what this new year will bring.
I’m also going to try to start doing this little list thing at the end of each post. I saw someone else do it and I liked it.
Currently Reading: The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
Currently Missing: Going to metal shows (damn smoking venues).
Currently Seeing: Two snoring beagles and a hot husband reading.
What have you been reading? I need more suggestions!